One of my best friends, Heather, is coming in to town today, yay! She is still an hour away, and since I don't really want to sleep for just one hour, I thought I would pass time by writing on my blog.
So, I've been looking for some furniture for my new place. I've decided to buy new furniture. Basically, I'm really tired of having worn out furniture that is uncomfortable and ugly. Plus, once I start working for the State Dept, I figure I'll actually need furniture. I've been shopping around, and luckily I found a couch set that I like. To get the couch, seat and a half (like a love seat but a little smaller), a storage ottomon, and a recliner it will cost me $1150. That may sound like a lot, but it really isn't when you consider that many new sofas (for just the one piece of furniture) cost more than that. And, to make it even better, it is the only one that I saw that I actually LIKE.
Now the problem is getting it to my place. The store doesn't deliver, but they use a moving service that would cost $80. I don't really want to pay that. So, we are trying to find someone who has a truck who would be willing to help. I already found one person who ISN'T willing to help. But, we haven't checked with people at church yet.
The only problem is that I am hesitant to ask them for help. I'm not exactly sure why. It is probably a combination of a lot of things. First, I hate asking for help, period. Second, I haven't had good experiences with asking for help. In fact, the only time anyone has ever helped me, I didn't have to ask. For example, I'm staying with another best friend, Erin. I didn't ask her if I could stay with her. She offered because she saw a need and could fill it. Every other time that I can think of, I didn't ask for help, someone offered it. Ok, I lied. One time I needed to jump my car, so I called my home teacher. He stopped what he was doing and drove down to jump start my car. But, that is one time. Every other time I have asked for help, either no one could help, or people said they would help and then didn't. As a result, I don't like asking for help from people I don't trust. But people I do trust don't seem to need to be asked.
I think another big reason why I am so hesitant to ask for help here is because I remember a time when my dad asked for help. Now, for those of you who don't know my dad, he absolutely HATES asking for help. It takes a lot for him to ask for help, even though he is willing to help others. After the fire, my dad needed to re-roof the house in order to keep our home insurance. He had a deadline, so he asked for help. A day was set up for the Elders Quorum at our church to come help. Guess how many people showed up . . . Not a single one. Instead, when I came home for my Christmas break, I helped my dad finish re-roofing our house/garage. THAT was the result of his request for help. It makes me so sad when I think about it. I know that no one did it on purpose. They probably just forgot, or got so caught up in their own lives that they didn't have time to help someone else. But for my dad to ask for help when it is so hard for him, and then not get any . . . well, let's just say, it affected more than one person.
So, in the midst of trying to figure out who to ask for help, here I am, thinking that even if we do find someone to ask, no one will help anyway, so why even bother? I've already thought up alternative plans, though they aren't pretty. Either we have to hire a mover, or rent a truck. Actually, I just looked, and renting a UHaul truck would be cheaper than going through that mover I mentioned above AND we would be able to move the other furnture that we have. So, if we can't find someone to help, that is my best option. Maybe I should just do that . . .