Surprise! and then again!

Family, where can I begin? This week has been a long one, one in which a lot of surprises happened. I am now back in Саратов (Saratov), soon to go back to Энгельс (Engels), probably for a few days, but who really knows? Pretty much, no one ever knows anything in this mission. So, I’ll start at the top.
(Picture to the left is my district from Энгельс - Elders Cummings and Burnah, Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг (Delgertsetseg) and me, Elders Page and Wade).
Like you know, I am getting transferred to Маркс (Marks). They told us that we would be leaving Sunday. Then they said that Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг would be with a member in Саратов while I went to Самара (Samara) with Sister Wheeler.
(The picture on the right was taken on the train to Самара. Elder Kupfer, Elder McCleve, me, Sister Wheeler and Elder Мелничук [Melnychuk]). Then we were told that Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг and the member would be in Энгельс (this was Saturday night) and that I would have to plan their week so they would be using their time effectively. So, that was not very pleasant because I was still leaving the next day. I basically had to plan their week during church, talking to members to find out if they could come see them. That was an inves Wheeler.tigator from Ершов (Ershov) came to Саратов and wanted to see us at the train station. We had to get there a little earlier so that left no time whatsoever. (The picture to the left and below were taken on the airplane to Moscow. Left, me and Sister Right, Elder Kupfer and Elder Broscow. As a side note, Elder Kupfer came to Russia with me. He went on the trip because he lost his passport a few months after we got into Russia and had to get a new one. Elder Briscow came in the group right before me and was on the trip because his passport was stolen not too long after he arrived in Russia.) Finally, I got on the train and I thought that I would have a little time to forget about everything and just relax. I was wrong. . . Later that night I found out that our P-Day has been changed to Mondays (that means that next week everyone ot fun at all because it was in the midst of saying good-bye to everyone. Then it turned out that ourneeds to write me before then or I won’t get your emails) and so I started wondering what the sisters would do, but I made myself not think about it because there was nothing I could do to help.
When I got to Самара, I found out that I was going to go to Moscow (Москва) and then Estonia with Sister Wheeler. That was a huge surprise. It was kind of nice, though. (The picture above is on the Metro in Moscow, Elder Briscow, Sister Wheeler, and I). We went to Moscow a few hours later and everyone relied on me to get them where we were supposed to go because I was the only one who had been there before. I know how the Metro works, but that is about it, except for I knew which stops we needed and how to get to Red Square. We went to the service station to pick up our train tickets and then went to eat at TGI Friday’s. (See pictures on the right and below. On the left is Elder Briscow, me, Sister Wheeler, Elder Dieter, Elder M, and Elder Kupfer at our dinner table in TGI Friday's. The picture on the right says TGI Friday's in Russian and was on the outside of the building where we went to eat.) It was really good, but really expensive. It cost more than 500 rub. to eat some potato skins and chicken fingers, but the honey mustard dressing made it worth it. I haven’t had that in a long time. We then went to the train station where we got on a train bound for Tallin, Estonia. It was weird because we were in a different car then the Elders . . . in fact, we were in the first class car.(See picture above, Sister Wheeler and I in our first class train room. The picture on the left is the view of Tallin with Elder Briscow, me, and Elder Kupfer). That was really nice except that we were far away from the Elders. The restaurant car was in between us so we could only get to them when the restaurant was open. But, anyway, we were again woken up in the middle of the night when we got to the border. It didn’t seem so bad this time, though. I’m not exactly sure why.
(In the picture to the right you can see Elder Kupfer, who was in charge of the map while we were in Tallin, acting like a tourist. We didn't even care what we looked like and had a lot of fun.)
When we got to Tallin, everyone gave their passports up except me and we went into Old Town. We ended up eating lunch at McDonalds and then we walked around. It was really cold, so we found a market and some people bought some winter clothing. Then we went to Stockmanns where we can buy a lot of things that aren’t found in Russia, like Wheat Thins, runts, etc. and things that are hard to find like peanut butter, brown sugar, etc. (See the picture to the left - me, Elder Briscow, Elder Kupfer, and Elder Dieter) I was surprised that I got us there because I had only been there one time three months ago and I didn’t try to remember the way, thinking that I wouldn’t return, but we made it without even getting lost. After our shopping spree, we went back to Old Town to find something to do. We wanted to go into one of the churches, but the first one we tried was closed. On the way to the other, we found a museum, so we went in. That was really interesting because I’ve never heard anything about Estonian history. They’ve been conquered a lot. It was little, but not a bad museum. (See the picture above - Sister Wheeler and I are "watching" the old movies in one of the museum rooms dedicated to old films.)
We then went to St. Olaf’s church where we went last time, but for some reason they were closed, too. We went to the harbor to look out at the Baltic Sea, and then went back to the train station to get passports and wait for our train ride back to Moscow. When we got to Moscow the next morning, we went straight to Red Square. We ran into several missionaries who were meeting some missionaries that had just come from America. (Picture above is on the famous Red Square in Moscow. From left to right is Elder Briscow, me, Sister Wheeler, Elder Dieter, Elder McCleve, Elder Kupfer, and an Elder from the Moscow mission). We wanted to meet them, but it was too cold to wait and we didn’t have enough time. Instead, we went to eat in the mall nearby. It was really expensive for very little food, but still not as expensive as TGI Friday’s. It wasn’t as good as Friday’s, though. Then we headed to the airport for our flight to Самара. We ended up being early, but at least we weren’t late.
(To the right - this picture was taken in Sbarro's where we ate lunch. It has the American flag to the left and the Russian flag to the right. I had to get a picture of it).
We arrived in Самара around 6:00 and our driver stopped by his Дача (dacha) before we headed to the office. As soon as we stepped into the office, we were told that our train was leaving that night. That made Sister Wheeler upset because we had left stuff at the Sisters’ apartment. Before that minute, we had been told that we would be in Самара until Friday, but they changed the plans without letting anyone know. In fact, no one in Саратов or Энгельс knew that we were coming until we called them from the train. Unfortunately, we weren’t able to get our stuff from the sisters and I’m not sure when I’m going to get it. That is bad because that is stuff that I really do need.
Anyway, we arrived safely in Саратов this morning and will be meeting the sisters in a half hour or so. Then I’m not sure what is going to happen. I don’t really want to stay in Энгельс now that I’ve already said good-bye to everyone, but I don’t think we can go to Маркс (Marx), the Elders won’t be there and then I won’t get my stuff for a couple of weeks, but who really knows what is going to happen. We’ll probably eat some lunch and then I don’t know what we’ll do before English tonight. There we will probably find out what the Elders are planning on doing with us.
Time flies, I can’t believe another week has come and gone. The two Elders who were due this cycle have gone home, their flight left four hours ago. I can’t help wondering what they are thinking and feeling because I know that my turn is next . . . I have a month left and less than a week and I don’t even know how that has happened. It can’t be possible that my mission is almost over, can it? I feel like I just started. I dreamed about this mission for so many years that I couldn’t believe when the time finally came, now it doesn’t seem possible that it has almost passed. Then I have to learn to live in the real world again. That is a scary thought.
Anyway, thanks to everyone who wrote me this week, mom, Sara, Lizzy, dad, I appreciate your emails and your support. Please don’t forget to write before Monday next week! It is really awful to come to the internet and not have any mail. All the missionaries ask how your family is doing and all you can say is, they didn’t write. I don’t like the pity that comes with that answer, so don’t forget!
Love you all, see you too soon, and I hope that everything is going well.

Love,
Сестра Атвуд

(The following film was recorded by Elder Briscow. He spoke in English, so you should be able to figure it out)

Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

yikes and yikes again

Well, family, this week has been a really good/tough one. Or rather, this week has been good and today has been tough. Thanks to everyone who wrote me this week, it really helped me to have such a horrible morning and come to the internet to find more letters than usual. So, I kind of want to answer your letters first, but I think that I will first explain why this week has been so good. First of all, last week we went to Ершов (Ershov), a little town about 2 ½ - 3 hours East of Энгельс (Engels) (yes, I found out where it is located). It was a lot of fun. We took the “branch taxi” (that is a member who drives a taxi) and it was pretty crazy. He is always tired so it was pretty dangerous. We had to take another member with us (female) so we wouldn’t be alone with him. (The picture above is of me and Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг with the food we made for our long trip to Ершов). It was a lot of fun, despite the fact that we almost did a 180 on the side of the road. He blamed it on the poor road conditions, but I think he just fell asleep. Don’t worry, though, we prayed before we left (and I prayed the entire way there, I might add) and we were protected. We sang and talked and laughed the entire way. (To the right you will see the sign for the city of Ершов with me and Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг when we first arrived at town) When we arrived in Ершов, we met Лена (Lena), our investigator, and she took us to her house. We met her parents and they fed us a lot. It was really good, but they wanted us to keep eating and there was no room left in my stomach. Then the grandmother showed me their icons . . . you see, Лена wants to get baptized and when she told her parents, they kind of freaked out. But, they are ok with her meeting us, but I think the grandmother wanted to show us that they are Russian Orthodox . . . it was kind of creepy. They had probably 100 or so icons on a table in a side room with a candle burning in the center. I felt like it was some kind of shrine. I felt like I had stepped into medieval times. Лена is still strong in her testimony and I am amazed everyday by it. She is truly a golden investigator and it is too bad that her parents are against her baptism. (Picture above - me, Аня (Anya, the member who went with us), Лена, and Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг) But, after much prayer and fasting, her mother is starting to be interested, too, and has promised to read the Book of Mormon. That is great news.
Friday, we had a conference with President and Sister Paul. They are from Germany, Frankfurt to be exact, and I guess President Paul served as a counselor to Elder Uchtdorf when he was stake president there. They are really funny, good, and spiritual people. I really enjoyed conference, even though I had to give a talk. That was awful because I had to give it in English. That is the first time I have given a talk in English since the MTC. I was trying really hard to not use Russian words, but it didn’t work out and I ended up calling Preach My Gospel by its Russian name. I think there was something else, too, but I don’t remember. Than, to top things off, a lady from some administration in Энгельс came to the end of our meeting. She wanted to stay and see the end, which was already time for testimonies. President Paul (see picture above: President Paul, Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг, me, and Sister Paul) asked President Давыдик (Davydik) to pick a few missionaries to share their testimonies. I didn’t think I would be picked because I had already given a talk, but I was wrong. So, I ended the conference with my testimony. This time was in Russian, so that was better. I heard one of the Elders translating into English for President and Sister Paul. That was really weird to hear myself translated into my native language . . .
Then, on Saturday and Sunday, we had district conference. That was also really good. I got to see all the members from Пенза (Penza) again. Well, not all, they didn’t all come, but I was able to see several. It was really nice to see them. Monday was good, but also a little hard. Since I had a little warning about transfers, I told one of our members that we are leaving. She started crying. It was very hard. I don’t know what will happen to her when we leave. There are so many people that we are working with who will be left without support . . . it will be very hard, if not impossible for the Elders to work with them. I guess that is what made the news I received today so hard. I am trying to accept it with grace, and accept it as the will of the Lord, but there is this nasty little thought in the back of my mind . . . that I am being punished because I didn’t agree to move to another apartment. The funny thing is, or the ironic thing is that I didn’t say no, either, just how I felt about the matter. You see, this morning I found out that not only are we leaving Энгельс on Sunday (that means we have 3 days to pack and say good-bye to everyone) but we are going to Маркс (Marks), a very little city not too far from Энгельс along the Волга (Volga) River. It is known as the city where you are sent if you mess up . . . and I’m not kidding about that. That is because there is no work. There were 4 Elders there a while back, but maybe 2 or 3 months ago, they cut down to 2 because there was not enough for the 4 of them to do. Now, we are being taken from Энгельс where we have work galore and being sent to Маркс . . . either that or someone is playing a cruel joke on me. That could be, too, who really knows. But, I feel sick to my stomach at the idea and I keep praying for confirmation that this is the will of the Lord. I know it will come, but for now, nothing.
Anyway, that will all pass, I know it, but right now I am feeling the worst of it. No, that’s not true, this morning I felt the worst of it and I already feel better now that I was able to read everyone’s emails.
Ok, now for answering everyone’s emails: First things first, my dear бывшая напарница, I have a lot of bad news. The first, you’ve already read, sisters will no longer be in Энгельс. The second, you asked how everyone is that we’ve been working with, well here goes. Лена hasn’t wanted to meet with us since you left. I sent an CMC when I found out that we are leaving on Sunday and she finally said she will find time to see us before we go. She wanted to know when we would be at the приход and I told her that I got a letter from you. She was rather bitter about it and said that you’ve forgotten her and so has Degroff, but she said she will come on Thursday to English to say good-bye. That’s the worst of the news. Ольга and Павел are doing great. It’s been really hard to meet with them since Ольга started working again, and when she found out that we are leaving, she was very upset and started telling me that it isn’t fair. She really likes my new companion, Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг. She, by the way, is great. She doesn’t speak very well yet, not even English, but that’s ok, we are still able to communicate. She is always willing to try new things and has even made several phone calls. But still, most of the work is on my shoulders. I still hate calling people, but I do it because there is no one else to do it. I even started calling some of the old contacts from our area book. By the way, don’t worry, my gmail is automatically forwarded to myldsmail address, so I will always get emails sent there. Ольга and Настя are also doing well, though it has been hard to meet with them. They don’t want us to leave, either, but have made me promise to come back and see them. Лида was in the hospital undergoing chemotherapy, but we went to visit her there. She is having a really hard time and has to go back in a month for another treatment. Who, else, oh, yeah, we’ve made some real progress with Олеся and Скоморохова Татьяна. Олеся has come to two activities, but still won’t come to church. She keeps waiting for a letter from you, too, just to let you know. I know that there are a lot of people to write, but everyone keeps asking about you. Татьяна has admitted that she believes the church is true. I think she is closer to death everyday. Right now she is really sick. She couldn’t even come to the phone yesterday, but we are going to see her tonight. She has also started reading the scriptures and has said that she wants to collect all her books from the church and put them where she can read them. There is still one Jehovah’s Witnesses’ book that she wants to read, but I keep telling her that she should just get rid of it, she admits that she won’t find truth there. Виктор is still drinking, but Валентина is working towards going to the temple. Фарафонтова Валентина won’t admit to drinking. (To the left, picture of the приход (branch building) in Энгельс) The Elders heard that she takes alcohol pills, but when we asked her about it, she denied it. I don’t know how to help her when she won’t tell us the truth. I still want to believe her, though, but I smell alcohol all the time on her. I can’t think of anyone else to mention. That’s about it for the news of Энгельс, which I soon will not be able to pass on . . .
Aunt Patti, I was really surprised to get your email! I have to admit that I was thinking about coming to visit you in Arizona sometime after I get home, but we can talk about that later. I also have to admit that even I don’t believe that I am half-way around the world, much less in Russia. I remember Dorothy. I’m amazed that you have another dog. I thought you always said that you have to keep the ratio of people to dogs the same, unless there is something else I don’t know of, the ratio of dogs has gone up! I haven’t really even thought about having my iron level checked, but everytime I’ve given blood (before my mission), they’ve checked it and there’s never been a problem. Who knows, though. I hope that you are enjoying your new callings and all, though don’t worry, I’ll never consider you to have passed into the adult stage, you’re both too young for that!
Sara, I’m glad to hear about your new calling. I hope that you are enjoying the responsibilities. How is the job hunt coming?
Dad, thanks for your email. I’m glad that there will be a lot of work for me when I get home. I haven’t been to the temple in so long that I will need to go all the time to remember what it’s like! You haven’t been to Reston in a couple of years? Wow, I had no idea. How did that happen?
Mom, thanks for your email, too. That’s too bad about Xavier. Maybe you need to consider having him stay outside. Maybe that will teach him to behave. Why did the high priests want single sisters at their meeting? That seems so weird to me.
Lizzy, I guess you have had an interesting week. Let me know if you get a job at PetSmart, that would be great for you. Your first time voting! How exciting! Though, it would be better if you remembered who you voted for at least.
Well, I’m out of time for today. I think next week’s email will be coming from Самара, but it should be on time, so I’m looking forward to hearing from you all then.

Love,
Сестра Атвуд

no news, is good news?

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
I can’t believe that another week has already come and gone. It seems so weird that I have almost been with Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг (Delgertsetseg) for a month! I must admit that time seems to be getting faster and faster as the days go on.
I’m feeling a little better this week, though my head seems to constantly hurt and I am always tired and the stress I’m feeling is worse than last week, but there is some comforting news. I don’t know if it’s really comforting, but I found out why we are moving, just not where. Basically, we were told that it is 95% positive that we are leaving Энгельс (Engels). They haven’t decided where we are going yet, but they’ve already put in our notice with the landlady and even some of the members know about it, so it seems to be official. That makes me sad because I really love Энгельс. I think Энгельс is the first city that I haven’t been ready to leave when the notice came. In fact, I kind of went into shock when I found out that we weren’t just switching apartments but also switching cities. At first I thought I felt better, but the next day I realized that it was 10 times worse than how I thought I had felt. I couldn’t even sit still during study time so I made борш (borsch) (it was really good by the way. I’ll have to make it for you when I get home) while I studied. Pretty much everyday I have that same feeling while we are in our apartment. I can’t handle being home without doing a million things to try to keep my mind off of it. I guess I feel a little better because I’ve seen a little the reason why we are leaving. We have a lot of work here and I still think that sisters are needed, but also, like I came to believe a long time ago, sometimes it is better for the relief society for sisters to leave so they start doing more. When sisters aren’t around to visit the less active sisters, the active members start to take more responsibility on themselves. Though, I haven’t noticed that kind of problem here. The other thing is that I think right now our investigators also need a change. I think they could settle for a change in sisters, but I guess the Lord has something else in mind. It will be really hard to work in a new area for a month before coming home, especially if I end up opening another city with my greenie who still doesn’t speak much Russian and now speaks less English. But, I have faith that the Lord knows what he is doing.
Well, now I’ll take a little time to respond to your emails. Thanks to everyone who wrote me this week, mom, dad, Lizzy, Sara, grandma and grandpa. I really enjoyed reading your emails this week. Thanks for the information, dad, I’ll let that Elder know. I’m sure he’ll be interested. Mom, I’m glad that you won a prize for your chili. I’m sure that was fun for the missionaries to judge the contest. Sara, you really shouldn’t waste time writing so little, but at least it was a little more interesting this time. You and Lizzy have really similar personalities, even though you may not believe it. You’ll have to show me pictures of your costume when I get home. Grandpa, it sounds like you had a very eventful birthday, and a good one at that. I love surprises and your day was full of them! I don’t know if you meant to do this, or if you even noticed, but in the subject line you wrote “weakly letter”. It wasn’t weak at all! It was very interesting, and even if you don’t get around to writing every week, at least there is a lot when you finally do write. For me, quality is more important than quantity. Lizzy, I hope you get a job. A lot of times when we have no job experience, we have to begin by settling for fast food. Just do well at whatever job you do get and things will be fine. I didn’t know that Halloweentown is out on DVD! Did you get one for me? 
Ok, now, let’s see, what else is new. Well, last Thursday I was feeling really stressed out and I told my DL how I was feeling and then I turned off my cell phone and turned the other phone way down so it wouldn’t disturb me and we went to bed early. I told the DL that he didn’t have to tell the ZL’s because there wasn’t anything that they could do to help it, but I guess he did anyway because they called me the next morning. At first, they told me that they had thought off all the missionaries in their zone, and since I was the best, they decided to have me speak at our conference with President Paul (I’m not really exactly sure what his calling is because he is taking the place of President Neuenschwander who went home because his wife has cancer). Then they started asking all these questions that gave it away that my DL had told them what I had said the night before. They started saying that if I have too much to do, they could find someone else to do it. Then they asked how I am feeling and if the fact that we are moving is making me feel stressed. When I said, a little, he asked, you don’t want to move? I said, of course not! Then he said something that at that time didn’t make sense. He said, we don’t want you to either, we said, No! We are keeping our sisters here, but President said otherwise. Well, that makes sense when you understand that you aren’t just switching apartments but actually getting transferred, but at that time I had no clue and I was a little confused. They were really trying to be understanding, but at that time I felt better when I didn’t think about everything. Since then they have been really nice and understanding and giving me compliments on the work I do and all that kind of stuff. Usually that would bug me, in fact, I think that it would have bugged me no matter what before my mission, but I guess I have changed a lot because now it doesn’t really. Maybe that is only because I trust them and I know they are doing that because they care and not to make me feel weak or something like that. They also don’t want me to get sick because of the stress and all that I have to do. Even though my companion is really willing to do things, there are still a lot of things that she just can’t do because of the language limitations. Anyway, since I found out that we are leaving, I’ve been trying to align my will with the Lord and I’ve almost gotten to the point where I want to leave. But, I’m afraid that if I do that, then it won’t happen, so I’m trying to keep a more neutral (I have no idea how to spell that word anymore!) feeling about the whole thing so that no matter what, I will be happy.
Let’s see, other than that, there is some not so good news. One of our investigators basically stopped wanting to meet with us since Silva left. She doesn’t have time, she claims, but she always found time when Silva was here. That makes me sad, but I keep inviting her to activities just in case. Other than that, one of our investigators who last week told me that she won’t come and won’t get baptized but then let us come talk to her, has also gone cold. I don’t know what happened because last week she thanked God that we come to her, but this week, it was an awful feeling I had when I talked to her on the phone. Well, its her choice, but the sad part is that I think she has a testimony (if only just a little one) and that she just doesn’t want to change. Maybe she is afraid of change, or maybe she is afraid of believing and won’t even admit it to herself, but now she has completely cut us off. I’ll try again next week and we will see what happens, but there isn’t much hope where she is concerned.
Tomorrow, we are going to a city called Ершов (Ershov). I’m not exactly sure where it is located, I just know that it is about 3 hours from here by car. We have an investigator there who is golden and wants to be baptized. Her parents don’t want her to get baptized so that is hard. It is also hard because the church is not in Ершов right now. There are no missionaries, no branch and there is one family of members but because they live so far away, they can’t come to church and are never able to meet with the missionaries. So, even if she were to get baptized, it would be very difficult for her. It will probably be the last time that we see her because of the transfer. She already knows and it will be very hard to part. I really love her and want to see her succeed and want to see her parents change their hearts. But, the good news is, at least they are ok with her meeting us and tomorrow we will be meeting her mother for the first time.
The rest of this week is going to be very eventful because we will be in Ершов all day tomorrow and then on Friday we have that conference (where I have to talk) and then on Saturday and Sunday we have district conference. I’m glad that we have so much to do because I feel better when I don’t have any time to sit and think. Then, next week we should find out for sure if we are moving and where we will be going and all that stuff. Then, the next week after that, we head out to wherever we will be going. Its going to be crazy if we really are leaving because I’ll have to pack and say good-bye to everyone and then I will really only have a month before I have to do exactly the same thing. That is enough time to get to know everyone and get comfortable in the work only to be yanked out and sent home. Yikes, it will certainly be interesting.
Well, I guess that is about all I have to say for this week. I am really glad that you are all writing me. I enjoy hearing about your days when I am so far away. The last little while I have been thinking a lot about what I did last year at this time and it is hard for me to believe that I was in Russia. How is it possible that I have already been living in a foreign country among strangers who have now become family and friends for over a year? How is it possible that so much time has passed that seemed so long when all this began. The MTC seemed like forever and then it was over, and the mission seemed like even longer and it too has almost passed. Its kind of sad and kind of exciting. I really do love this work, and if it weren’t for the hard days and the inability to see all of you, I would happily spend the rest of my days in the service of the Lord. It is truly the one time when you can forget about yourself and think only of others. I used to wonder how the sons of Mosiah could spend 14 years serving a mission and now I know. When you love a people and want to see them receive the blessings that you have received, you don’t mind the time spent serving them. I do not regret serving a mission. To many people, especially here, it is not understandable how we can sacrifice so much to serve people we don’t know and they really don’t understand how our parents were able to let us go, but I don’t think anyone involved here has regretted this for a minute. Maybe we haven’t seen each other in a long time, I have missed out on a lot of happenings at home and you haven’t seen how I’ve grown, but what is a year and a half when we have a life-time ahead of us? Many people have said, I wouldn’t have let my son or daughter go, but that is because they don’t understand the importance of this work. They don’t have a testimony that this is what the Lord wants them to do, and that is why they think they could not make a similar sacrifice.
Well, that is it for now.
Love you all,
Сестра Атвуд

P.S. Thanks for all your prayers and thoughts, it means a lot to me.
(I've posted pictures randomly on here from the Halloween Party at the branch. The first picture is one of the member boys, me in my costume holding Катя (Katya) the daughter of a member we were working with, and Elder Page. Second - the branch members singing a song. Third - the member kids bobbed for apples.)

yikes

Well, family, another week has passed and here I am writing home again. First, some of the members want me to tell you some things. First, there is Королёва Раиса (Korolyova Raisa). She called us yesterday and wanted me to tell you all привет (privet - as in hi). She is a really good lady whose son is serving a mission in Moscow. Their family was sealed in the temple a few months ago. Her son has been on a mission for a year now and she was explaining how much she misses him. He is planning on going to BYU and she told me that it was hard enough letting him go to Moscow which isn't so far away, but she can't imagine what it would be like if he was half-way around the world. That is probably why she wanted to tell you all, hi.

[Picture above - Раиса and I in Энгельс (Engels), more specifically the area of the city called Мясокомбинат (Myacakombinat)]

Another lady is from Пенза (Penza). We saw them on Sunday when they came to see the temple dedication. Her name is Морозова Галина (Morozova Galina). We didn't meet with Галина a lot in Пенза because she was always active, but I guess the few times that we did meet with her made a big impression. She came up to me and asked if I remembered her. I was really happy to see her because she was too sick to travel while I was in Пенза and she was really happy that I remembered her. She was sad to find out that I am going home in two months. She told me to tell America привет (privet - I'm not exactly sure how to pass THAT one on) but then to tell you thank you. I don't remember all that she said, but she said a lot of nice things. Basically she wanted to thank you for raising a daughter like me who would come and share the gospel.

Also, this isn't from a member, but one of the Elders in my district has an Atwood in his line of authority and he wanted to know if I am related. I figured that dad would know. His name is Millan D. Atwood.

Thanks to everyone who wrote me this week, mom, dad, Lizzy and Sara. So, since myldsmail is having problems today, I noticed that my gmail account didn't get the last two emails from you, dad. I usually check the heading before deleting them, but last week, I guess I didn't because I also didn't send it to my gmail account. The last one I have from you is Oct. 11. Could you send the ones after that to my gmail account? That would be great, thanks.

Lizzy, that's too bad about the job but don't worry, you'll get one. Tell Sara that she doesn't need money to start her personal history because she can use the computer if she needs to. Sara, what kind of test did you have to take? If you aren't going to write real emails, you could at least give a few more details.

Mom, it seems like you are pretty busy all the time. I don't know how you do it. I think I have a little feeling of what that is like now that I am also a "mom". I am so exhausted all the time and sometimes there are things that I just don't want to do but I know I have to because if I don't, they won't get done. Of course, that is on a small scale because at least my daughter can talk for the most part and at least I don't have to feed her and all that stuff, but it seems to me to be a similar situation.

Other than that, let's see. My head has pretty much been hurting constantly for the last several days. I'm not exactly sure why except maybe from stress. The funny thing is that I don't really feel stressed except being exhausted and having my head hurt, but I know that there is a lot of stress. For the first time in my life, there is a person who causes me to cringe everytime I see him. Its pretty awful. I'm not exactly sure why but I feel like he is terrorizing me. If you haven't figured it out, I am talking about the man who wants us to live in his apartment. He keeps appearing at out meetings. He came to conference and talked with President Давудик (Davydik) (so much for him telling the truth when he said he wouldn't force me to live in his apartment) and then when I talked with President Давудик, he made it sound like he was on that man's side, even after I explained how I feel about it. That is really upsetting because no one is on my side except my ex-companion who doesn't have to deal with the problem. The thing that makes me a little angry is that they said it was my choice, but when I made my choice, they decided I didn't make the right one and that it wasn't acceptable.

Anyway, other than that, not a whole lot of good things have happened this week. One of our investigators told us that she won't come to church and she won't get baptized (we haven't even asked yet) but she is more than happy to continue to meet with us. I'm not exactly sure what to do about that because our work is to help people progress towards baptism and that means that if she won't do what it takes to progress, we should stop meeting with her and let the members fellowship, but at the same time, I think she is just afraid and I think she already knows what she needs to do but isn't ready to take that big of a step yet. So, that means that I have to decide about that and I hate it when we have to stop working with people when they are willing. One of our other investigators is now in the cancer hospital for examination. She will be there this entire week and then we will find out if there is something seriously wrong.

Also, we ran into one of our anti- members on the street the other day and that was an unpleasant experience to say the least. The only comfort is that my companion felt as awful as I did without understanding and that is a testimony to me that the member doesn't have the spirit. This member said a lot against the church, the Book of Mormon, Joseph Smith, the leaders here, "western" people and America. I think the member is one of the Russian-power people.

(Picture to the left - Ирина (Irina) and I outside of the church building in Саратов (Saratov). This was after the dedication of the Helsinki, Finland Temple).

But, I don't want to go on too much about that because despite that, there were still some good things. I love being around the active members because they give me hope that things will be better. They are such good people and are honestly trying to do their best. There are still a lot of problems that need to be overcome because the adversary doesn't want to lose his hold over the hearts of this people, but when I see the strong members that are here right now, I know that it won't be long before he will lose the fight. Plus, seeing the temple dedication was amazing. It made me miss the temple, though. It was really cool because I was able to see two sessions. The first was also the first temple dedication ever done in Russian and it was great to be a part of that. The second was supposed to be the English session, but it was really in Finnish with an English translator. So, now I've heard the Hosanna Chorus and a dedicatory prayer in English, Russian, and Finnish. That's something interesting.

Well, I think my time is up. I keep praying for miracles, but I guess the Lord has something else in mind. Don't worry, though, despite all the hard things that have happened this week, I am still happy to be serving a mission and even happier that it is here, namely in Энгельс, Russia, with my sister, Дэлгэрцэцэг (Delgertsetseg). (By the way, she is teaching me some Mongolian so that is exciting).

Love you all,

Сестра Атвуд

P.S.

By the way, did you get the first copy of the Liaxona yet? I would really like to know which month is the first one.

ужас (oozhas)! (that is hard to translate, but you'll get the idea)

Hello dear family,
I want to begin with answering your letters. Thanks to all who wrote me на этой наделе (this week – I decided to write how I think and that is exactly what came to mind).
(This weird picture above is of me sweeping the floor in our bedroom. For some reason, my companion wanted a picture of that).
Sara – that is the first time that I have heard that people think we drink blood, but I think your teacher is right, she got us mixed up with vampires. Maybe she got confused because she heard that the church is in Romania, too (we actually even have a missionary in Russia from Romania and a member from Саратов (Saratov) went there on his mission not too long ago). By the way, I’m glad to hear that you are alive and well. When do you hear from Burger King?
Mom – I’m glad that Stake conference was good and all. There are probably a lot of new people in the ward there that I’ve never met. Grandpa’s 80th birthday? I think maybe you made a mistake there, I don’t think he is that old, is he? Tell him Happy Birthday for me, anyway.
Lizzy – I’m glad to hear that your will be introducing the personal history paper that I sent. Let me know how that goes. It seems like you are keeping yourself pretty busy. I hope you get the job at Target. How’s the application to BSC going? I think it is a really good idea that you have to keep a journal everyday and to use that to write me because I really enjoy reading your letters now. Its kind of like what mom does except you could say that her “journal” is just what she writes to me everyday.
Dad – That’s good that the computers are up and running again. Also, I’m glad that the genealogy work is going well (or so it seems to me). What is the difference between Vista and the old Windows?
Ok, now for my email. This last week has been full. On Thursday we came to Саратов to meet with President Neuenschwander. It was really good. He wanted to meet every one of us individually. He speaks a little Russian, enough to talk to members (he makes a lot of grammar mistakes but he still isn’t afraid to speak. It’s a good testimony to me that we don’t have to speak perfectly because all the members still love him). He spoke to us in Russian for most of the time but towards the end he resorted to English.
(Picture above: Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг (Delgertsetseg) and I after the meeting with President Neunshwander)
After our meeting with him, there was a meeting with everyone. He spoke and told how his wife has cancer and that is why he is being released of his calling and going back to America. He really loves Саратов and that is why he chose to come here (this is the only city that he decided to go to before heading home). It was a really spiritual fireside and I enjoyed listening, but than it had to be ruined. There is this member who is part of the district presidency who also owns the apartment where the Elders live right now. Those Elders are moving to an area a little outside of Engels to start a group there. (They are currently a part of our приход (branch) but soon will be meeting there instead of traveling to Engels). Well, because of that, this man wants us to move to his apartment because our apartment is the only one not owned by members. First of all, most of our work is centered around our apartment. That means, if we move, we will have to do a lot more traveling. That means there will be less time to meet with people. If we move, we won’t be able to walk to the приход anymore (that’s more of a convenience than a necessity). Also, almost all of our neighbors know us (especially now) and that means we have a connection with them. That also means that if we move, there will be no connection with them. So, for the work, I think it is better for us not to move. BUT, he, of course, doesn’t care about that at all. All he cares about is the money that he will not be receiving and he has tried to manipulate me by telling me that the money from the apartment goes to pay for his grandson’s schooling. He also told me that they won’t force me if I don’t want to. So, after the fireside he came up to talk to me. I didn’t want to talk to him so I said that we were already running late and needed to get home (that was true). (Picture above is just for fun. It is at our district meeting. It was Elder Cummings's birthday, so the Elders attacked him). He cornered me anyway and started talking. He asked me if I had decided to move yet. By the way, he also brought the lady who helps with registration and she helped corner me. She had already said a different day that I need to agree but I told her how I feel about the work. I said no and he asked me what was keeping me from deciding, so I told him. Basically, he got angry and started talking about registration and how there are problems. The lady who deals with that started agreeing even though she already told me that there shouldn’t be anymore problems because they did it once. So, that made me start feeling like he was threatening me. Well, there was a little argument and he said that he would talk to President to have him interview me. I responded with something and in the end he said rather rudely (I’m not exactly sure why), yes, you speak Russian very well. It was awful but what made it worse was that it seemed later that the Elders were on HIS side! But, now I think everything is going to work out because my companion is already registered until Christmas, soon I will be, and we are paying for the next two months rent. Than he won’t be able to do anything to me. That is one reason why I hate having members as landlords.
Well, my time is up, so I better get going. I’m sorry that I didn’t get time to tell about all the good things that happened so I’ll sum it up shortly. After that awful experience with him, everything seemed to get better. We now have two new investigators (see picture below - this is in the church in Энгельс with Elders Wade and Page, Игор (Igor) a member, Лена (Lena) one of our new investigators, Sister Дэлгэрцэцэг, and me) I’ve seen a lot of success with the people we have been working with! I think it just goes to show that the Lord blesses us after difficult times!

Ok, love you all,
Сестра Атвуд